By Lilian Wamaitha
Imagine spending so long looking for a job and then boom jackpot! You land your dream job at a good company. Nothing can compare to the excitement you feel when you imagine going to work every day. It’s like your life is finally right on track. However, without realizing it, you are thrown in a situation that you can’t salvage. What do you do when the very same thing that is supposed to give you happiness and satisfaction, has now become one of the reasons you can never be comfortable with life?
“I was not lucky to land a job immediately I graduated like the rest of my friends. I had to struggle for some time and having come from a not so well off back ground didn’t help either. Five months ago though I applied for a job and lucky enough I ended up getting it. It was a role as a communication assistant at a well-known company here in Nakuru.
Things had started fine and I knew that I had finally found the career I wanted to pursue. However, over the past three months things have changed drastically for one reason – I have fallen in love with my boss.
I am 25 years old, married and this is my first job. I got married when I was in second year after I got pregnant. My boss is turning 40 this year and also married with three kids. He is seriously the nicest, smartest man I’ve ever met. I don’t know what attracted me to him but I had thought that this was just a crush that would pass but the way it is now, I believe it’s past that.
He is the one who interviewed me for the job and has always said that the reason he thought I was a good fit was because I had the potential to learn and even grow. I have always done a good job but now I am afraid that my feelings for him are affecting my performance. It has become very hard for me to concentrate on my job especially when he is around and all I want is to declare my love for him. Sometimes I think that he feels the same way and we could have something special if he was not married.
This whole experience has even got me thinking that maybe I made a mistake marrying my husband that young. The tension is already visible in my marriage as every day we are arguing over the most useless things. I don’t know what to do anymore and I am so close to giving up on my marriage.
My boss on the other hand has commented that my performance is not like it used to be. My probation period will be coming to an end next month and my being confirmed depends on how well I will perform these two months. I had stayed for almost two years without a job and I can’t imagine losing this. To try and salvage what I have left of my job and dignity, I have tried to put some distance between us but it’s hard to do that when I see him almost every other day of the week. I am literally living my hell right now and I don’t want to quit my job and neither do I want to destroy my marriage. My husband deserves better that how I am treating him.
I know it seems like a situation that I can control but I don’t know. Is it because I have only been in one relationship all my life that I have now fallen for my employer? I know he is almost twice my age but I can’t help it. Should I tell him or just let it be? And what do I do about my job?”
Put yourself in Judy’s shoes? What would you do if you were in her position? And while at it, do you think that she brought all this to herself? What should she do? Share your opinion below.